I don't even know what my drive was when I was on Concerta. I need to know. Otherwise, I'll fucking hate my life, wondering why I ever did what I did, like now. Now I'm just feeling like I have no drive, and I'm just lazy, and I can't even hold my body upright.
My dad wishes I was better. I wish I was better. Like I need some kind of performance enhancing substance to be happy. I won't have kids. Don't worry.